sometimes i miss you so bad i can hardly stand it.

"He orders a postcard of Brokeback Mountain. In his trailer, he pins it up and, beneath it, the two shirts on a hanger suspended from a nail. He begins to dream of Jack as he was; he wakes sometimes in grief, sometimes in joy and release; the pillow sometimes wet, and sometimes the sheets. There is a gap between what he knows and what he tries to believe, but if you can't fix it you've got to stand it."